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No good....

My eye's are dry. It's the second time I've started to cry today. Life feels like shit, my boyfriend at the moment is a total douche bag. Last night we go off to bed, because I wanna try and get some sleep I take a sleeping pill at 10pm, Trev SHOULD have taken his then too ~_~...He sits on the FUCKEN computer till I don't know when. I get up and go out to my computer, sit there for a while read maybe 3 chapters of CLAYMORE before I start to nod off a little. Sam came out and said a few things to me and went to sleep. Instead of going to bed I head to the couch and try to get to sleep there.

Trev comes out after a while and wakes me up I dismiss him pretty much because I'm tired and he's like "come back to bed." I'm just thinking "come back to bed?...Come back to WHAT?! You aren't in bed you sitting in front of the shit box staring at it. I'm coming second compared to that piece of shit. Because I haven't done much with my computer lately I get very bored quickly and I don't wanna spend a lot of time on the computer.

I slept on the couch, I don't like sleeping in a big bed by myself. At like 6am I get woken up by Ash and Richard clonking around getting ready to leavec. I move back into the bedroom and shove Trev over and go to sleep. I woke up at like 10am. Got Trev up, I thought like normal new day. New things...But no same shit today. He asked if I wanted a milo I say "yes please". He probably wasn't even fucken listening to me. Which pisses me off, he comes back with a coffee for himself.......*twitch* That pisses me off so FUCKEN much. He says he's gonna do something and NEVER fucken follows through with it.

His last job he quit because of the "stress"...Maybe he was still stressing out from working with us (cos you know you are actually WORKING, instead of sitting on your fat ass.)

Yeah what about fucken me....I'm stressing out because I can't fucken save some fucken money for me because I'm baling people out with money for food because we don't have enough to just buy for 3 people. Nope not anymore. I'm gonna give my $40 to Trev and no more money is coming out of my wallet, I'm not fucken covering for anyone anymore, I'm sick of it.



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Mar. 3rd, 2009 09:19 am (UTC)
D: That doesn't sound fun. Don't take shit.
Mar. 3rd, 2009 09:26 am (UTC)
D8...I do believe I am somewhat of a door mat now-a-days...T3T
HA! I get dinner at Mum's though tonight and no one else >D...mmm good food.
Mar. 3rd, 2009 09:43 am (UTC)

That's why I don't have a bf. Men turns to jerks in relationships >.>;;;

Granted, not all of them, but I'm yet to be convinced.

Don't stress yourself out. Try to make more time for yourself and don't take those shit from people >;3
Mar. 4th, 2009 06:46 am (UTC)
Granted, not all of them, but I'm yet to be convinced.

LOL! Yeah, generally i'm convinced too, I've seen way more guy's who are jerks then I have seen guys who are just nice ._.

Trying not too ;3;...today is a better day, no crying ^o^
Mar. 3rd, 2009 09:44 pm (UTC)
*hugs tightly*
Mar. 4th, 2009 06:45 am (UTC)
thanks =3
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